In Chapter 11 of Their Eyes Were Watching God,what does Janie wish for herself?What does Janie wish for herself?

In Chapter 11, we see the true beginnings of a
relationship between Tea Cake and Janie developing. However, after all of her years in
Eatonville with Joe, Janie is suspicious of her own feelings and the reactions of the
others in town. In fact, when Tea Cake expresses his feelings for Janie, she replies
with the following line:

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"Aw, Tea Cake, you just say dat tuhnight because
de fish and corn bread tastes sort of good. Tomorrow yo' mind would
change."

However, by the next
day Janie is second guessing even herself, struggling to come to terms with her
conflicting feelings toward Tea Cake and the reactions of
Eatonville:

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"All next day in the house and store she thought
resisting thoughts about Tea Cake. She even ridiculed him in her mind and was a little
ashamed of the association. But every hour or two the battle had to be fought all over
again. She couldn't make him look just like any other man to her. He looked like the
love thoughts of women. He could be a bee to a blossom--a pear tree in blossom in the
spring. He seemed to be crushing scent out of the world with his footsteps. Crushing
aromatic herbs with every step he took. Spices hung about him. He was a glance from
God.

Tea Cake is able to
revive in Janie her visions of the pear tree and, just as before, "dawn and doom was in
the branches." Now tempered from her relationships with Logan and Joe, Janie is wiser to
the ways of the world and more suspicious of love. However, her feelings for Tea Cake
are too strong to be denied.

And when Tea Cake returns to
confirm his feelings for Janie, the battle between her own emotions and her sensitivity
to the reactions of the townspeople must be waged one final time over their attendance
at the Sunday School picnic. In the final lines of chapter, Janie states and Tea Cake
replies:

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"Well, all right, Tea Cake, Ah wants tuh go wid
you real bad, but,--oh, Tea Cake, don't make no false pretense wid
me!"

"Janie, Ah hope God may kill me, if Ah'm lyin'. Nobody
else on earth kin hold uh candle tuh you, baby. You got de keys to de
kingdom."